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a small note from me

sometimes when i spiral i forget

that i’ve survived every other spiral so far

the one thing im scared of, the inevitable heart attack, never actually happened.

when people talk about useless scrolling time i can never relate because whenever i open my favourite apps, pinterest and tumblr, it leads me to a revelation or at least inspiration.

i found this quote the other day on tumblr with no source or name (the most profound words ever written are text posts made a 16 year old on tumblr, it mostly has around 400 likes) and it stopped me in my tracks:

“u survive literally every single event in your life & still every time a new event happens you feel like this is the event that will kill you and that you will never move on from but actually you will continue to survive like you always have bc u have a 100% win rate of surviving events. btw”

the “btw” at the end? killed me. resurrected me. reminded me.

i don’t always believe in affirmations but sometimes something written in lowercase by a stranger on the internet breaks through the noise of my own brain. so i thought i’d it with you.

it’s very “but did you die?”

i wish i could remember this feeling more often. this reminder that every time i thought “this is it, i can’t handle this one,” i handled it. not always gracefully. not always quietly. but we did not die. the girl that lived

and if you’re reading this, you have a 100% survival rate too.

btw.